Jasmine's Pensieve

2012-02-04T23:03:00.004+08:00

Hey yo! I updated my blogskin again!
And looking back on my previous post, i keep commenting on my new blogskin.
But the thing is i can never remember which skin i'm talking about already. HAHA.

Oh well, it's a Saturday!
How's everyone spending the day?
Mine was quite good actually. I went for SLC's 4th ever Supermarket Run with the elderlies!
How time flies really? I wrote my thoughts for joining the past events on our Service Learners page and here it goes:

"SERVE,LEARN,TRANSFORM :(Supermarket Run 4)

For me, i can never express how happy i am whenever they are around.

Started off with Supermarket Run 2, and can find no reason to not go back for the next project.

I always get heartwarming smiles from the elderly, ever so happy and cheery. (:

What’s more, I’ve definitely learnt something out of the chats with them.

They made me realize how life can be as simple as even waking up to seeing sunlight, smiling while talking about your loved ones though they might not be always around, to even chatting and bickering with old friends. (:

Like what one of the elderly says, “不开心也是一天, 开心也是一天. 不如就开开心心的过每一天?” (Unhappy, it’s a day. Happy, it’s yet another day. So why not be happy every day?)

I think it’s when you really take out the time and initiative to talk to them, that’s when you get this indescribable feeling, an impact they bring to your life.

One thing I know for sure, I’m happy and that’s what keeps me going. (: "

Yes. That's what keeps me going.

I know i'm happy with what i'm doing, and there's nothing which holds me back. (:

Really glad to see that the elderlies actually remember you when you don't see them often.

It shows the impact you bring to them too.

I will be back for more. For more fun and laughter which i don't wanna miss. <3

Anyway, a few more days before the end of the semester, the end of my second year in RP.
I really can't wait for it to end. This semester has been quite disastrous.

Too many demoralizing things happening at once.

Codings, daily grades, people, things. MANY MANY.

I just hope for the holidays to be better?

Yes. Please be better! (:

One of the many things i wanna say is, i can't seem to find 1 to trust.

Would you tell me you'll be the one?

Would you uphold it?
Please do.

2012-01-03T20:43:00.000+08:00

Hey all!

How is everyone doing recently?
School just started for me today. Totally mood-less but i managed to survive the day. (:

Was glad to see this article up on the RP-OSG website!
It was written by both Zi Yang and i for our project, "Magic Workshop 2011"!
You guys can take a look here if you are interested. (:
http://www.rp.edu.sg/osg/newsletter/Dec%202011/magicworkshop.asp

First time writing up an article so i'm so excited over it. hahah. :P

Recently volunteered for the mediacorp countdown at the floating platform and the experience was awesome!
Watching the fireworks was the best start of 2012 ever!
Had a great time with friends, talking and slacking. (:

Spent the first sun rise with beloved Tracy<3, Chinyee, XiuJing, and Keith!

I really had quite a bit of fun this holiday even though all of it drained me out (not forgetting work). (:
Happy 2012 people, may it be a great year ahead for you! <3

2011-12-27T00:42:00.000+08:00

What's worse than getting condemned by people?
The miserable feeling you get inside?

Studying, never good enough.
Working, never enough.
Money, never enough.
Time, never enough.

Spend it with you all also wrong, don't, also wrong.

THEN WHAT THE BLOODLY HELL SHOULD I DO?
TAKE MY LIFE LAH YOU.

Since that was what you gave me.

2011-12-05T21:45:00.001+08:00

4th December 2011.

It's a day i'll never forget in my life.
Finally i get to see Homin in real and it really seems like a dream come true!!!!!
I still could not believe it when the actual day came!

They arrived on the 3rd of December at around 1.45pm.
But too bad i had 2 events that day, (EIPIC Family day 4 and RMHC christmas party which went on pretty well ^^) and was unable to be at the airport!

Was really jealous of the people who got a chance to go after them even to the hotel and even dinner.
But still, time just flew by quickly and it was the 4th of December!
I woke up feeling so happy, like i haven't felt so happy in ages. :P
Met up with Katie (my bestie!<3) whom i haven't seen for ages!
Was so glad to see her again. Finally we get to meet up and spazz about DBSK and many other random stuffs again! (:
We went straight to Stadium and reached there around 4pm.

Audrey and Nasyirah was nice enough to help us buy the towel first as we were afraid it would get sold out! (Which really did)
$25 for this:

Oh well, expensive but the official goods for this fan party! :D

Went to have dinner, slack around at the Kallang Leisure park, before heading back to the stadium at around 6:05pm!
Queued for awhile and around 6:30pm, THE GATES ARE OPEN!!!!!
Was so afraid that my camera would get confiscated!
But luckily we went to this nice lady and she was really lenient with the checking...

The minute we got in, :OOOOOOOOOO
I WAS IN SHOCK. I saw the stage and i was like OMGOSH. FINALLY!
I am going to hear homin sing live in this indoor stadium!
Nothing could express my thoughts and feeling at that point of time!
All so cold and nervous and shaky....

The Party started at 7:30pm.
The whole 1 Hr plus was basically screaming, and more screaming. (maybe frantically waving of the light stick too when homin looked this way. ><)
There were times where tears could not control and fall too.
Times like when the Fan videos were shown, when they first came on stage, when they talked about DBSK. <3
Love the talk sessions where Changmin and Yunho talked a bit of Singlish like, "No Problem, Lah?" and also "Chilli crab was Shiok" and "Alamak! So many fans here today!" Haha. :D

Awesome songs in the TVXQ medley with "The way you are"and "Mirotic".
Plus the whole song of Rising Sun!! (ONE OF THE BEST PARTS! WITH CHANGMIN'S SCREAM LIVE!! <3)
There was also "How can I", "Before you go", "Maximum",and "KYHD"! <3
I totally love the songs in this album! Them singing this live was even more awesome!

SERIOUSLY, to sum it all, it was really a FANTASTIC DAY.
It was really one of the best days in my life and could never ask for more.
I really thank god (tua pek gong) for bringing them here!

Everything just seem to happen in a blink of an eye. SO QUICK.
They flew back to Korea today.
Waited at the airport but to no avail. Didn't get a chance to see them up close at all.
Can't say i'm not disappointed. But still, i could never ask for more already.
I am contented with what i have now. (:

Oh ya, one more new resolution for 2012. (actually officially new here since it's always been in my heart. :P)
I hope for DBSK as 5 on the Stage again, in SINGAPORE.
I hope my perseverance and determination in believing will come true some day. ~
I love you, OPPAS. Please come back soon! <3

:D

* A post dedicated to Homin's stay in Singapore.

2011-09-10T13:47:00.000+08:00

It's been the longest time ever since i've blogged!

So sorry for disappearing peeps!

It's now the semester break for me now which allows me to have a bit more personal time! (:

Thousands, millions of things have happened for me!

Celebrated my 21st birthday at coasta sands resort - pasir ris with family, relatives, and friends!

It was definitely a memorable event!

Sincere thanks to everyone with the presents and wishes!

Especially the cards! It's so fun reading through all the things everyone of you had written on.

It really brings back great memories and smiles to me. (:

Not forgetting the end of another "headache" semester!

Finally programming is an end. Temporarily, but somehow at least i could stop worrying it for awhile!

Not sure of how the upcoming modules are gonna be like.

Quite sure it's gonna be challenging again. But this time round, i want to study hard for it!

I always procrastinate. Which makes me feel so guilty whenever i don't do well.

Please! I should and will work hard for the upcoming semesters!! Ganbatte neh! :D

Oh yes, i was recently being appointed as the secretary of Service Learning Club! (SLC)
Could not express how happy and honored i could be to be part of the higher management.

I'll definitely try my best at it! (:

More responsibilities and work to be handled now, and i'm quite sure i'm going to be busier than ever!

This is always what i have always wanted to do though.

NO REGRETS. I'm gonna enjoy myself with all the events and projects! (:

And i'm gonna be a part of the Polytechnic forum 2011!!

How exciting is this?! Haha. (:

The 5 days of pre-forum and 4 days of actual event at Malaysia-Desaru is taking up almost half of my holidays already!

But i seriously am excited for this! Especially making site visits and the trip to desaru! (:

All the new people i'm going to meet and also the fun we're going to have! AWESOME!

Haha. So much more stuffs are coming up!

Like the RMHC (Ronald MacDonald House Charities) Kids club launch, EIPIC Family day 4, and more!

Will be back for more updates!

Stay happy everyone! (:

2011-06-26T22:41:00.001+08:00

So many, too many things happening at once.

Some of it doesn't even give me time to think at all.

I am really tired of the new modules which are giving me headaches.

IT is really so not for me at all.

But what can i do? I can only try my best at it.

What's worse, loads of things on mind for me to decide on.

Should i, or should i not?

Could i, or could i not?

Must i, or must i not?

Having dilemmas more frequently than ever now.

Work, school, personal issues, family, fun, play, anything, everything.

It all needs a decision to be made.

I'm so tired of planning my way through.

How i wish things goes well without thinking at all.

Oh well, i hope the time for me to do what i enjoy to would be here really soon.

I can't wait for graduation.

I'm waiting for that day. Pray that i can do it well.

Please.

Peace & Love ~ ♥

2011-06-02T00:19:00.000+08:00

Hey guys! I have decided to use back this blogskin. Lol.
How disappointing! I couldn't find any nice blogskins! ):
Oh well, till i find a really nice one, i'll stick with this first ok? (:

Hmmm, i guess this blog is dying already. Haha.
I have so many things going on and i haven't really got time to write down each and every one of it.

School and work has been keeping me really busy lately.
Understanding test (UT for short) is around the corner and it seems like it continues for months!
There are UTs on May, June, and July. Why why why?!
And i guess the Last and final UT is on August? Gahhhhhhhh.
Poor students of RP, including me, is always on the rush. ):

Whatever it is, life still has to go on.
I'm quite sure the 1 and a half year will pass really quickly, even though it's rather contradicting.
I want and don't want to end my poly life at all. ~
Boohoo.
And time waits for no man. No matter how much you want it to.

Had been to work for both USS and SST.
Oh well, nothing much with work since it's not new anymore. Haha.
It's just that i got to work for the grand opening of USS SINGAPORE!
It's such an awesome day of work with great pleasure and honor!
Watching the parade during working hours is the best! Lol.
I had to crowd control a bit, but not much control was needed and i was right in front of the parade. (:
Glamorous, or spectacular, or magnificent you call it, it's fantastic to me! Haha.
Oh well, i'm amazed at the management team too.
They did a really good job, at no matter what cropped up, they tried their best in making it sure it's ok.
Hmmmm, i'm somehow glad to a part of the opening.
It's a once in a lifetime thing. You couldn't open the park after it's open isn't it? HAHA.

Oh well, that's that!
I'm tired and working tmr! Will be back for more post!
Sleep well everyone!

Peace and love. <3

2011-05-12T09:25:00.000+08:00

Hey guys! How's everyone? Hope you all are going great. (:

Oh well, I'm currently in Database systems class for now. And the Faci is taking attendance and looking through the problem statement.
Hmmm, talking about school, SLC recently had a welcome tea session!
It's really nice to see most of the members again. They are awesome people to be with. (:

I've been really drained lately. Tired from work, school, meetings, and sick, which made it even worse.

Oh well, have been really tempted to do online shopping lately. So many things i wanna buy!
I mean i did some online shopping already. And i should really control if i don't wanna over spend.
But still, it's tempting lah. Haha.

It's break time now anyway, it's 2 hours after attendance taking. Lol. (:
Cya all soon. Loves!

2011-05-05T21:16:00.004+08:00

HELLO! :D

New blogskin! Is it nice? Lol. Oh well, i used up hours to do it. And it isn't even nice. My programming really sucks.
I have to try harder!
Give me more time will you? (:

2011-05-05T00:24:00.003+08:00

I AM BACK! :D

I am really tired. Seriously, i should sleep now.
But because i am being said that my blog can just throw away already, i feel the need to be here. Lol.
Oh well, It's been really busy ever since school started!
Or it has always been like that since ages ago.
Sometimes, i just feel irritated even when people talk to me.
I know it's really bad to do so. They have done nothing wrong. But i just feel irritated.
I just feel that i wanna have some time to do my own things. I just wanna do the things i want, listen to the music i love.

If there is ever a time i sound irritated, I'm really sorry ok?
I'm just, tired. Please don't hate me. ):

And anyway, SLA (Student life activities) fiesta is over!
I'm glad all the planning dear Syuhada and me did did not go down the drain!
The months of work and planning. (:
Not forgetting the help from the committee and members!
You guys are really awesome people to be with.
Without anyone of you, it wouldn't be a success at all. <3

And i went to Indonesia for a short 2 day trip.
I'm really glad that things didn't turn out as bad as it seem.
I mean, our wish was fulfilled, everything was done, things were fine.
I think i worry too much for nothing. Lol.
Lastly, a bonus picture! :D

It's not me. Twins. Cute isn't it? (:

2011-04-29T17:24:00.000+08:00

I could never find a way to be in it.
Maybe i feel so .

Ahhhh. So what was the reason for me being there.
I could have been eating and happily chatting and eating with poon and kimmy.
Everything about me was so demoralizing.

Goodbye.

2011-04-23T01:22:00.000+08:00

When i joke, i actually feel bad deep down inside.
When i get a cut, i want a plaster even if i say no.
When i do ridiculous things, i feel bad towards you. No matter how upset i am.
When i cry, i want you to be around even if i say no.

But sometimes when i say go away, i mean it.
I want to be alone.

2011-04-17T23:18:00.001+08:00

Is this true?

"She will stand out of the crowd on the street. Leo woman is normally tall or
rather tall. You will hardly see a short thick woman. When she walks, she
walk like a queen, confident and does not look around, as if there is
no one around her.

She will dress in her own style not according to fashion. She is confident
of what she choose to wear. Do not buy cheap clothes where they sell in dozens
for her as a gift, she will hate it. Also, do not buy clothes that do not
reflect her confident personality. She likes unique and strange clothes and
accessories. Being different is what she loves.

If you want to know her, take time and be patient because she is selective
about people she mingles with. She's open minded, but yet she is not letting
people get to close to her easily. She likes sweet words and compliments,
but not too much.

She smiles with anyone, but inside, she thinks that she is born to be a leader.
She likes to be in control because it is in her nature instinct. She is a
graceful woman , and she has a magnetic charisma, so expect tough
competition."

That's what someone thinks is reflecting on me.

2011-04-03T01:31:00.002+08:00

Thanks to the people who always compliment me on my smiles. (:
People always comment that they like to see me smile.
They always say i look good when i smile.
They always say i should smile more.
And the more they say, the more i feel that i should do that.
I feel that by being happy, it brings smiles to people around you too.

But,
Should i also smile when i'm feeling down?
Should i smile even when i'm feeling so tired?
I've tried that. So many many times. And the feeling is terrible.

There are so many things on my mind.
And most of it is not even motivating at all.
I can't find a source of motivation to keep me moving.
I feel so useless and small at times.
Wondering if i even exist in peoples eyes at all?

Simple minded people can think a lot too?
I don't know if it's even simple minded.
It's complicated thinking.
Because there are too many things to consider.
I think i worry too much.
Like what Hanafie has said, I am someone who observes before i act.
I tend to observe before taking actions.
I think so? And feels quite true to me.

It's funny how things always turn 180 degrees from what you expected.
Maybe not everything. But something does.
Trying hard to control myself.
Regardless of whatever it is, i'm trying to make sure i don't fall and never wanna stand back up again.
I'm trying to improve. I wanna be a better person.
I've said that umpteen times.
It's something to remind me.
And i know it's difficult.

2011-03-27T23:26:00.000+08:00

The one trip that will make great memories in me.
The Service Learning Trip to Vietnam 2011. (:

I spent 2 weeks in Vietnam. In which 11 days at Binh Duong, and 3 days at Ho Chi Min City.
I still remember clearly the day where i was waiting to catch the plane in the airport.
That was so clearly memorable because i was so glad to be away from Singapore for awhile.
I remember cabbing down with Khloe and Apple down to the budget terminal.
I remember having breakfast with Junfa, Tracy, Diana, and Sherman.
I remember how Aisha's dad was so friendly to all of us.
I remember shopping for gifts for the people in Vietnam.
I remember the feeling in me. (:

Everything started from there. But flew past in a blink of an eye.
14 days seem long. But it feels so short too.
So many things happened in the 14 days.
Consisting of good and bad things. Things which i don't want and hope i won't forget on.
Things which made me realize what love is. Things which touches me.
Things which made me smile, things which made me cry.
Things which made me stronger.

I remember myself crying on the plane back.
It was so sudden. I feel upset. So upset to be leaving this place.
The place which i had so much fun in.
The place which has so many wonderful people in.
The place which i feel happy in.

I was really reluctant to be back.
To be back to this harsh and cruel reality.
But still, time goes on, and we have to keep on moving.
Departures are inevitable.
Moments of pain and happiness can only be kept as memories.
I have to be back.

Even so,
The memories, are just so precious. Because, it's the people who made it precious. (:
If you're part of this team, if you're reading this, i want to say,
I love you. I love you all. I really do.
Thanks for making the 2 weeks a memorable experience.
I'll remember this for as long as i can.

And remember, smile! :D
Because you're amazing, just the way you are. ♥

2011-03-25T00:10:00.001+08:00

Hey guys! How is everyone?

I've just changed my blogskin! What do you think of this? (:

However, details are not changed yet. Due to time constrain. Haha.

Will be back for more updates. Including the days spent in vietnam!

It's gonna be a memorable thing for life.

I'll be back! Stay happy and safe everyone! :D

Loves.

2011-01-31T09:01:00.001+08:00

Hi guys. It's a rainy monday and it's new media lesson.

I've got to create a blog and so here i am. Lol. :D

2011-01-18T23:49:00.003+08:00

" Think about how many people have sat next to you on a bus, train, whatever.

Now think how many people have sat next to you on purpose,

with their fingers crossed in hope that you’ll talk to them. I’m sure somebody has.

There’s plenty of times when somebody’s seen you and hoped that you spoke to them,

but you never did, ‘cause you don’t have the guts, and neither do they.

Don’t go around thinking nobody likes you and that you’re not loved,

there have been plenty of time when a stranger spotted you and thought

“oh they’re just my type,” but haven’t had the courage or confidence to open their mouth and initiate a conversation.

The funny thing is, neither have you. "

2011-01-06T20:04:00.002+08:00

This is a long post. A really long post. But who cares?

It projects what cassies have always wanted to say. It tells people how DBSK love each other.

It has to be kept as a memory. ♥

Don’t we have to be strong , Cassiopeia ?

If it’s JYJ…
If’s HoMin…

Who cares ?

What does SM want now ?
They want Cassiopeia to fight with each other so TVXQ will not have anything left.
HoMin had a very, very few works for a year. They weren’t appeared on television or radio at all and SM has just brought them out.

Because of what ?

It is because SM know exactly that although HoMin don’t litigate in case but their hearts belong to the other 3 members.

Please remember this Cassiopeia.
HoMin are still under SM so they don’t have a right to do anything.

We don’t know what is the real story.
We don’t know how it is behind the scene.
We don’t know what Jaejoong ,Yoochun,Changmin,Yunho and Junsu had to go through.
We don’t know what will happen in the future.
We never know.

But there are many things we exactly know.

We know Kim Jaejoong loves the other 4 members and he loves Cassiopeia.
We know Jung Yunho loves the other 4 members and he loves Cassiopeia.
We know Chim Changmin loves the other 4 members and he loves Cassiopeia.
We know Kim Junsu loves the other 4 members and he loves Cassiopeia.
We know Park Yoochun loves the other 4 members and he loves Cassiopeia.
We know Dong Bang Shin Ki loves Cassiopeia.

We know there was a time Yunho leaned on Jaejoong’s shoulder to cry..just because he didn’t want other members to see his weakness.

We know there was a time Yoochun wrote a message and hid it behind the little prince’s computer named Chim Changmin.

We know there was a time Jung Yunho carried Junsu’s unconscious body on his back to the hospital.

We know there was a time Jaejoong looked at Yoochun all the time when he found out a few minutes before the show that Yoochun was sick .

We know there was a time Yunho looked after Junsu all night when Junsu was sick.

We know there was a time Jaejoong dancing with tears on his face when Yunho was poisoned.

We know there was a time Jaejoong’s face was badly pale when he saw our leader collapsed as he drunk a glass of orange juice.

We know there was a time Junsu picked up the wallet for Yunho and Jaejoong had to pick up the wallet for Junsu because Junsu forgot his own.

We know there was a time Junsu cried behind Yunho’s back.

We know there was a time Yunho protected Junsu by his strong back.

We know there was a time when finished concert our leader cried with delight with Jaejoong.

We know there was a time Yoochun cried because of the rumour that Jaejoong would be dismissed from TVXQ.

We know there was a time Yunho said ‘Without our fans,we'd be nothing.'

We know there was a time Yunho said ‘TVXQ is just like a family,a home.No matter how far we're separated,we'll come back together one day.'

We know there was a time Changmin said ‘Whatever the five of us go through, together we can get through it without any fear.

We know there was a time Yunho said ‘Even until the time for us to go our own separate ways,the name TVXQ will not disappear. Each member is still TVXQ.

We know there was a time Junsu said ‘ If Jaejoong is sick, it is as if TVXQ’s leg is sick, and if Changmin is sick, that means TVXQ’s arm is sick.

We know there was a time Yoochun said ‘If our friendship could last forever, I don’t need anything else. ‘

We know there was a time Junsu said ‘Cassiopeia… who wait for us wherever we go and always give us an unwavering love… You are the reason why TVXQ exists.'

We know there was a time Yunho said ‘No matter how far we’re separated, we’ll come back together one day. ‘

We know there was a time Yoochun and Changmin said ‘Without Yunho, there would be no TVXQ.'

We know there was a time Junsu said ‘If one of the members leaves the team, I will not stay in TVXQ anymore. ‘

We know there was a time Yoochun said ‘Our support for them (HoMin) will never change.'

We know there was a time Jaejoong said ‘Yunho and Changmin frequently appeared in our dreams ‘

We know there was a time JYJ members said ‘it will take time but definitely they will be ONE again.

We know there was a time Yunho sacrificed his bed for Jaejoong.

We know there was a time Changmin had only one wish that Jaejoong recovered as normal.

We know there was a time Changmin sang high vocal to help Yoochun when he had an asthma attack.

We know there was a time Jung Yunho protected everything about Dong Bang Shin Ki.

We know there was a time Park Yoochun sacrificed everything flying from the USA to be Dong Bang Shin Ki.

We know there was a time Kim Jaejoong did everything to be Dong Bang Shin Ki.

We know there was a time Kim Junsu tried his hardest to be Dong Bang Shin Ki.

We know there was a time Chim Changmin endured everything to be Dong Bang Shin Ki.

We know there were many times Dong Bang Shin Ki told us to wait for them.
We know there were many times Yunho said ‘they loved us so much.
We know there were many times Dong Bang Shin Ki said they were so sorry for making Cassiopeia waiting for them.
We know there were many times Jaejoong always said that ‘Could you wait for us,please ?'
We know there were many times Yoochun cried for Cassiopeia.
We know there were many times Junsu gave angel’s smile to us.
We know there were many times Changmin bowed very low to thank for us.
We know there were many times Changmin said seriously ’They loved us.’.

We know there were many times they promise to us through the song.
We know there were many times they were proud of Cassiopeia.
We know there were many times they protected cassiopeia.
We know there were many times they relied on us.
We know there were many times they trusted in us.
We know there were many times they saw only us.
We know there were many times they needed us.

We know there will be a million times they say to us “ Thank you… sorry… I love you”

We know there will be a million times we say to them “I’ll wait…don’t cry..I love you’”

We know how close to each other Dong Bang Shin Ki is.
We know there are a million things that didn’t typed down.
We know there are much more harder things …but they never say.
We know at this time… at this moment… they cannot do anything.

If there are people who leave, there are also people who stay. We don't need to be 800,000 to be happy... [ cr:tohosomnia]

How much we hurt cannot compare to them.
If we start to fight with each other… then SM’s plan is succeeded.

‘Always keep the faith’ don’t say this if it’s not come from your heart.
Cassiopeia always be one and be here for Tong fVang Xien Qi.
No matter what happens , we have to be here for them.
Promise me …. Please, with your heart.

P.S.[1]
for those who support JYJ but don’t support HoMin or support HoMin but don’t support JYJ do not called yourselves ‘Cassiopeia’ because Cassiopeia love five of our boys as equal.

P.S.[2]
I wrote this article about a few months ago..and just translated it in English .I’ve never thought I have to translate it in English before but after that thing happens .. I have to.
-Please spread this article as much as you can.
-Translate it in your own language it you can

P.S.[3]
I translated it hurrily so sorry for my bad English.
And last..
I spent 3 hours writing and typing this so don’t make it wastes my studying time [Changmin will scold me ^^ hahahahaha ! ]

credit ; a cassiopeia
[I wrote this by assembled from many sources , so sorry for some missing
credits.]

2011-01-03T21:44:00.003+08:00

Do you remember when i was young? We went to the seaside. Having fun at the beach?

I was young. I slipped. I fell. I almost drowned.

I struggled. I drank in sea water. I breathe in water. I felt bad.

You ran over. I saw you.

Flashes of you. I wanted to see more.

But my eyes hurt. They hurt because of the sea water.

You put your hand in. With your strong hands. You pulled me up.

My eyes stung. My nose hurt. My hands shook.

I never wanted to go back to the water anymore.

Thinking back, you saved my life.

You gave me life, you saved my life.

Seems like a dream? But It's real. I'm not lying.

You could have been better. But why couldn't you?

I swear to god that suicide will never be the way to end.

2010-12-04T01:40:00.002+08:00

Hi People!

It's been a long time since i last blogged isn't it?

Its going to be a month! Did anyone of you miss me? haha.

Anyway, it's been quite tiring lately.

With school, work, and the UT together..

Plus IG meeting and outings? (:

All in all, it's been very occupied and full for me!

Hmmm.. So what's been going on?

We had a "class outing" on mon, 29/11/10!

Why did i bracket up the class outing? It's because it's too mini. Haha.

It started off with more than 10 people going but ended with only 6 of us.

But anyway, there's me, Ai Ting, Celeste, Jacky, Yan Cai, and Guan Beng. (:

It's the first ever outing that w45C had!

And it's a start isn't it? Things will start to get better..........

Because we had a birthday celebration in class today! (:

It's to celebrate ChinYee's belated birthday, and Celeste's birthday today, because it's already 1.50am now.

So our dear Jacky BOM BOM ordered pizza for the class and we had lunch together!

We took our first ever class photo too. OUR CLASS POHTO.

*it's not a typo error. I did it on purpose. xD

So yeah! What else? hmmm hmmm hmmm....

Oh! I met up with Marcus, LeeYang, XueNi, and JianWen on a sunday to celebrate Marcus's belated birthday too..

When was it? Should be on the 21st of november! haha..

Oh well, we went to watch harry Potter, and had dinner together..

As simple as that. But i had fun. (:

I always have fun chatting with them. ♥

One good news would be, the holidays will be here on the 18th of december!

Which means 2 more weeks of school, and the 2 weeks of holiday will be here! (:

The 2 weeks will definitely fly for sure.. With my work and outings going on..

But then, i'm still anticipating for it!

I can't wait. For the day where i can sleep till 12pm and nothing is going to wake me up. (:

AND OH YEAH.

JYJ had the first stop of worldtour concert in Korea!

It's over.. And all the breath taking performances! ♥

I hope they'll really be here next year! Come on JYJ! Come on HOMIN! (:

Because TVXQ will be back on January 26. Jaejoongie's birthday!

Why are the dates trying to tel me something?

Hmmm.. Oh well, i'm hoping that next year would be a better one!

It wasn't good for me, it wasn't good for my family, and definitely not good for TVXQ~!

I hope for 2011 TO BE BETTER!! *prays

So, that's all folks!

I've said enough. And you've read enough. Haha.

I have to sleep because it's 2.00am and i have work tomorrow!

I'll be back! ♥

2010-11-07T22:06:00.002+08:00

Dining in the Dark event was fun!

We had to serve in the dark and move around in the dark!

Everything went on well..

Except for the part where i went to wrong table. =.= LOL.

Damn funny of me..

And i got to know alot of people from that event. (:

SCREW ALL THE ANTI'S.

I'm happy seeing TVXQ happy. ♥

2010-10-30T22:53:00.002+08:00

My first ever event that i planned happened today. :D

It was the EIPIC Family Day!

Everything went on quite well i guess..

I was really happy to see all the kids happy and the parents playing along with them..

I was really quite a bad Emcee i say.. Lucky Apple is around.. Have to thank her.. (:

And also it was quite busy too!

Haha.. i have to move here and there.. Checking that the things are going on fine..

But it was an eventful morning.. (:

Thanks to all the volunteers and families which came for the event..

And greater thanks to Jolene, Helen, Nikki, and Ly for making this event a success.. (:

Checkout my Facebook for pictures ok?

CHEERS. :D

2010-10-24T23:37:00.001+08:00

Haven't really got time to blog.

Everyday is WORK and SCHOOL.

I hope i'll be back.. Real soon with something. (:

2010-10-17T22:36:00.010+08:00

I still can't believe that i saw JYJ yesterday. I saw JYJ so up close!

It was at most 3 meters away.. And i was practically staring at them!!

I'll start with my fan account now! I wanna remember this day forever! ♥

16/10/2010

I left my house at 10.30am and left for the airport. Reached at about 12pm.

We waited near belt 47, which was already crowded with JYJ fans.

Waited for around half an hour, and decided to take a seat in the Van first.

However, we were really tempted to take a look at JYJ! xD

We went back to the arrival hall and waited.

Soon after, around 2PM, JYJ finally came! LIKE OMG! It's was Chaotic!!!

Screams and shouts showered the whole arrival hall. xD

We managed to take a glimpse of them, and we RAN back to the Van!

We ran really quick hoping that we would not miss them! (In the end we got muscle aches for days! lol)

We got on the van and off we go!

The driver got to know that JYJ's van number was 9188, and they had left!

So, our driver drove really quickly to catch up with them!

After a few minutes, we finally spotted them!

The feeling was indescribable! I felt so nervous, so excited!

Our driver was really experienced! He really knows where to stop!

We had around 5 to 10 secondss of looking at JUNSU'S side view, and he looked damn good! xD

After which, they saw too many fans chasing them, and closed the curtains.. ):

However, we still have got fan service from dear YOOCHUN!

His finger was popping out of the curtain and turning his index finger! LIKE OMG! :D

They started turning in circles and finally, reached the hotel...

We dashed out of the van and rushed up front to try and get a glimpse of them..

I was really glad that they had not gotten out of the van yet! (:

I managed to find a good spot! It was just beside the van, with no people blocking!

Within 10 seconds, they were OUT.

First up, JUNSU led the way, walking in front with his cap and red blazer..

Next up, JAEJOONG with his black jacket and sun glasses.

Finally, YOOCHUN with his beanie, sun glasses, and scarf.

I PRACTICALLY STARED AT JUNSU.

I WAS VSUALLY SHOCKED. SERIOUSLY.

I STARED AT HIM FOR AS LONG AS I COULD.

AND NEXT, JAEJOONG.

HE LOOKED REALLY GOOD. LIKE GOOD. :D

IT WAS MY FIRST TIME SEEING HIM IN REAL.

AND I WAS LUCKY TO SEE HIM REAL CLOSE! LIKE OMG!

HE IS HEAVENLY!

HE LOOKS LIKE SERIOUSLY HANDSOME!

I WONDER WHY PEOPLE SAY HE DOESN'T LOOK AS GOOD IN REAL.

YOU'RE WRONG! HE IS LOOKING AWESOME. :D

AND FINALLY YOOCHUN!

HE WAS KIND OF LIKE FULLY WRAPPED UP.

BUT I COULDN'T TAKE MY EYES OFF HIM TOO! xD

I was seriously in VISUAL SHOCK. LOL.

And kind of slow when people started to rush in after them!

After that they went in and had their press conference in Swiss Hotel.

We waited there for around 3 hours?

But we took lots of photos while waiting too! :D

It was around 6pm in the evening? When there's news that they might be going off!

So we went off to the hotel entrance only to hear that THEY had actually left! ):

In the end, when we reached EXPO, they had already went into the hall.....

Kind of disappointed. But what can we do? ):

So we went back to the front entrance and waited for the showcase to start!

We walked around, here and there.. Saw fans and friends of everywhere... (:

The concert was delayed due to the rehearsal!

And i think that the schedule was too packed and rushed too.

But anyway, the showcase started at around 9pm and the duration was around an hour.

THAT HOUR WAS SIMPLY (JYJ)~

HIGHNESS TO THE MAX! HAHA.

I KEPT SHOUTING! LIKE SOME CRAZY GIRL. xD

But it was all worthwhile for JYJ! I almost cried when they came on the stage.

I felt happy. Elated.

Like half of my wish was fulfilled.

It was like half a dream come true.

But i stopped myself. It was supposed to be a happy event after all.. (:

When the showcase was over, we stayed for awhile in hope of seeing THEM again.

But we missed the chance, again. ):

We saw the handsome translator though.. Lol. And took a picture with him.

After that, HSH.

The whole journey back home with Katie, Xueer, and Josephine was only JYJ. ♥

END. ♥

2010-10-08T01:24:00.002+08:00

If you have to stab me again and again, i rather we don't talk anymore.

Now i know you don't look at this. Great.

Holding back the tears. But it won't hold..

2010-10-05T00:05:00.002+08:00

I wonder when you're going to stop all of these absurd stuffs?

Why? Why do you like to put so much worries on us?

Especially her? Why? Why?

Don't you know how to think?

Don't you know what's right and what's wrong?

I've enough of all these stupid things...

It just adds on to my list of things to do and worries..

And nobody cares whether i'm ok or not..

I mean, "really care".

But _____ is the one who really needs care.

2010-10-01T01:37:00.005+08:00

But i'll forever not be the one..

When will i be the one?

Why is it taking so long?

Why is it me? Why is it always me?

I've had enough of it.

Because only i know how it feels..

Because i care..

Sometimes i care too much..

And it hurts too much..

But i never tell..

Too many things in you can kill too..

Like the sharp knife..

I feel like i can burst anytime now.

2010-09-29T14:38:00.003+08:00

I'm actually dreading school... ):

I guess i don't wanna get the feeling of forcing myself up every morning...

The feeling which makes me feel that life is so tiring...

Especially when i have school and work in a day..

It's been going on like this for years.. I wonder when it'll stop..

Looks like it wont.. But it's ok..

That's what life is isn't it?

If you don't work hard now, when will you? (:

Just don't mind me when i start complaining ok? Lol.

Today is a very SLACK day for me..

I was at home the whole day! (:

Once in awhile chance for me.. Haha.. i was so lazy..

Practically sitting in front of the com for the whole day.. xD

But i did help my parents on abit of something.. Haha..

And fangirling with Katie and Xue Er! (:

I made quite some new friends on twitter..

All because of JYJ.

DBSK. They are one of the few things which can make me better when i'm down...

They are the one who brought new friends to me...

They are the one who brought music to my ears..

They are the one who brought laughter to me..

They are the one who brought colours to my life..

They are the one, who i'll never forget ..

Because, they are the ones who keep me going.. ♥

2010-09-26T11:32:00.004+08:00

Oh, i love this song so.

Whitney Houston: I Have Nothing - Lyrics

Share my life; take me for what I am
Cause I'll never change all my colors for you
Take my love, I never ask for too much
Just all that you are and everything that you do

I don't really need to look Very much further
I don't want to have to go Where you don't follow
I won't hold it back again This passion inside
Can't run from myself, there's nowhere to hide

Don't make close one more door
I don't want to hurt any more
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or Must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing,
If I don't have you, You, you, you, you.

You see through, right to the heart of me
You break down my walls
With the strength of your love
I never knew, love like I've known it with you
When our memories survive one I can hold on to

I don't really need to look very much further
I don't want to have to go where you don't follow
I won't hold it back again this passion inside
I can't run from myself there's nowhere to hide
Your love I remember forever

Oh don't make me close one more door
I don't want to hurt any more
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing.

Don't make me close one more door
I don't want to hurt any more
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me

Don't walk away from me

Don't you dare walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you,

If I don't have you

♥♥

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c-dBV8Re6NQ

2010-09-23T01:29:00.003+08:00

Oh yay! I had a great time with Miao Ning at USS today! :D

We had a try in almost everything!

First time on the canopy flyer and it was fun! :D

Went on the revenge of the mummy twice! Haha... And the second was as scary as the first.. =.=

We had pizza for our late lunch and went mel's drive in for chocolate and strawberry smoothie!

Had fun with all the mascots and characters too!

Ahh.. went to take the Treasure hunter ride which Dhan was working at..

But too bad he was controlling the rides! I couldn't get a chance to take a picture with him.. ): Haha..

I love Enchanted airways too! :D

Kiddy but sooo for me.. Lol.

Overall, it was an awesome day!

Even though it started to rain really heavily in the late afternoon, and we had to get back to work..

But still, i had fun! :D

I will be back. For more! xD

~ "Something simple and nice is enough to touch one's heart."

~ "A little something to make someone feel better..."

Do you think it all rhymes? It's all talking about the same thing isn't it?

It doesn't have to be a grand and magnificent thing..

It can be a simple thing from within the heart..

But it's enough to present what you wanted to say.. And present it well too.. (:

So, you're welcome! I just wanted you to feel better.

Because if you do, i'll do so too.. (:

love love.

2010-09-20T21:44:00.002+08:00

Mixed emotions flowing in me.

I wonder why i always think this much.

Some things seems absurd. And some impossible.

Even though i might be quite busy, i still think.

This feels shitty. ):

And i feel so tired. But how?

I don't know how to settle this mess.

I started it. So i have to stop it. But i'm so tired and so reluctant to do so.

It's a huge mess. It's also important i guess. It's either this or that.

So do i want to stay, or leave?

SHUCKS.!!! ):

I'm sorry. But i don't want to feel like a fool anymore.

Or maybe, i'm scared to be one. Again. ):

The best way to avoid disappointment, is to not expect anything from anyone.

I'm trying, hard enough. D:

2010-09-09T23:24:00.002+08:00

Time flies doesn't it?

I'm only left with the last paper of the semester.. Which is maths!

The subject which i dread the most.. But i guess it'll be over soon too!

Have been thinking alot lately.. With lots of things happening...

I wonder how i'm going to cope when sch starts...

I wonder how the nx few weeks will be like..

I wonder what will happen to us...

I wonder if i can go on...

I wonder alot...

And i can't make up my mind.. That's the problem.. ):

Anyway, i was selected into the SLC committee..

I am under publicity.. As a sub-committee member.. But it's still something good to me..

It shows what? "I have the potential.." That's what they always say.. (: Haha..

And of course I'm honored to get into the committee!

It's still a long way, people...

2010-09-05T22:36:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone~

This 3 weeks had definitely been an eventful one for me...

Getting so busy that i haven't been blogging..

So, well, alot of things happened!

I went for the RWS training sometime ago.. It was supposed to be on the 30th of Aug.

But because i had something on, i brought it forward to 23rd Aug, different from Andy's...

That is where i got to know "Dhan". Someone different...

He's a very funny malay guy.. And guess what? He was the first and best friend i made at the training.. (:

He's the first malay guy who i really talked to..

Or maybe the first malay guy i could talk to.. Oh well, that's how we started to talk alot..

Guess it's because we only had each other to talk to too.. haha..

Anyway, the 3 days were fun.. With Dhan poynter. :D

Our whole family went for a Batam trip again..

We went on the 1st of Sept.. The day which i had to attend the SLC Seminar..

I had no choice but to skip it... With greatest regrets... ):

It was supposed to be a trip to settle some matters.. But something obviously happened..

We still went they because tickets were bought.. And money shouldn't be wasted..

But it feels like hell there.. Shouldn't even have thought of going there...

At least i'm back to where i belong to now... (:

But this place has got another dread for me... Which is,

UT3 tmr.

OMG SUN.

I need a miracle. Please?

2010-08-22T01:05:00.002+08:00

Have been working hard for the past few days...

I can start to feel the accumulated stress in me already...

Tired and restless..

Next week will be an even more eventful one..

So , GAMBATTE NEH! :D

Oh well, i came across this voting recently..

DBSK was actually in the first position.. But they dropped to 2nd today..

I badly wanted them to win.. You know how much they mean to me right?

You might think it's some useless and stupid voting..

But it's a different feeling for me when i see cassies coming together in hope of doing something for them...

Anyway, to vote, just click on the blue/purple button next to the orange button on the page..

Votes can only be given around every 10 seconds.. So, please do your part if you're a cassie!

And, help even though you're not one! (:

Your help is greatly appreciated! (:

http://kr.rival.kids.yahoo.com/rival/favor/index.html?ac=favor&tac=view&category=1&code=201008&rcd=6005&cd=9&&&_cntCd=9&BMD=read

2010-08-19T16:14:00.004+08:00

Met up with Kimmy and Ming Hui Yesterday..

Qiu Yi was supposed to meet us too. But she had something on last min..

And she had to abort us... LOL..

But nonetheless, we still went around shopping for what we need..

Kimmy got all excited when we found something... xD

Anyway, i still remember the "beadtle Sweet" shop..

That shop in Plaza Singapura, always plays nice korean songs! :D

However, i suspect that there's a DBSK fan there! I heard 5/7 DBSK songs while shopping...

She even skipped Bieber's song just for DBSK..! LOL..

I'm happy listening while Kimmy's happy looking... (:

Hmmm.. Have you ever felt this way before?

Just when i thought that i am finally doing something in my life, something unexpected happened..

It feels like everything is going to turn the other way round instead..

Everything is going to go haywire..

But i was lucky.. It turns out to be something acceptable..

But how many times can a person get lucky in a lifetime? It just feels so scary to me..

Just thinking gives me creeps.. Makes me think how fragile life is...

However, from this, i finally realized something...

It's actually not as bad as i think.. Somehow, you all do care..

I'm still someone, something to you...

I guess, you all do care after all...

2010-08-16T20:23:00.003+08:00

Woohoo.. I had fun celebrating my birthday!

Thanks to Marcus, May, LeeYang, ZhenXiang, YeeTat, XueNi, Nicholas, Gary, and WeeKiat!

More thanks to QiuYi, Kimmy, MingHui, Joyce, Raj, Eugene, Andy, JunWen, and WeiHao! :D

Thanks to everyone for the wishes too!

But then again, Special thanks to LiHui..! She's really a very good friend to me..

Always there for me whenever i need her..

Always helpful and caring towards me.. She's really helped me alot in the past 1 year..

I really don't know how to move on at times without her...

She also did alot for my birthday.. Did something special which i really appreciate.. (:

Thanks girl... (:

I feel like i'm finally doing something in my life.. But i guess it's not gonna be easy...

2010-08-11T01:57:00.000+08:00

Oh yay, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! :D

=.=

2010-08-09T23:12:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone... I've been missing for days already..

It's been quite a busy week for me!

Making me feel so shagged le.. Makes me don't feel like going sch..

But it's the last week of school before the holidays... so, ENDURE!!

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to SINGAPORE!!

I love you! haha.. i'm serious! xD I'm happy and glad to be where i am now.... (:

Happy to see the celebrations this year.. Think i missed the previous one.. lol...

Hmmm..

It's the last week with W16C le..

4 more days to go.. Don't wanna miss anymore time with them le.. lol...

I'll definately miss everyone of them...

I'll miss how QiuYi always goes crazy..

I'll miss how Kimmy always needs to stress one corner...

I'll miss how Raj pouts and says "GUNDU"!

I'll miss how Joyce always gets cramps and her gangsterish way of talking...

I'll miss how Ming Hui always brings cereals and complains it's cold..

I'll miss how Khair likes to fart, and the way he cracks his jokes...

I'll miss how Eugene always tel me, "breakfast set A!"...

I'll miss how Sotong Andy is...

I'll miss how Jun Wen likes to bully people...

I'll miss how Lady Malah laughs...

I'll miss how Jaffar is always called Fajar..

I'll miss how Peter gets his gold...

I'll miss how Julia always "shoots" people...

I'll miss how Bob moves in turtle world..

I'll miss how Yan Yan goes crazy with me about Korean pop in class..

I'll miss how Wei Hao always gets nervous when presenting..

I'll miss how Kendra goes can drunk...

I'll miss how Yi Xin's presentation slides go so HER...

I'll miss how Darryl always gets new positions of sleep in class..

I'll miss how Surya likes pepper and bats...

I'll miss how Hazel stutters and makes us laugh..

I'll miss how Hafiz always likes to smile and say, "hi"...

I'll miss the everything which started from DAY 1.

I'll miss W16C, and i mean it...

2010-08-04T01:09:00.002+08:00

I was on the way back home from work...

Guess i was tired already.. But anyway, i reached the cck control station at 12 midnight...

I saw a really old uncle... Or can i say, ah gong already...

I've seen him afew times le... he always goes home at this late time.. I wonder why..

But i feel so bad when i see him walking like that..

He was trying so hard to walk faster.. so that he can catch the LRT..

But in the end, the lrt which came wasn't going to the direction he was going...

And he had to wait 8 mins... 8 mins for the nx LRT!

And i feel bad to leave him sitting alone there.. ):

And he always brings back a packet of food back to eat i guess?

I wanted so much to help him... but what can i do?

Send him back? impossible.... ):

Anyway, it's only left with 2 weeks before semester ends! I'm gonna miss W16C!! I mean it!

2010-07-28T00:09:00.002+08:00

Things have been going on quite smoothly for me recently...

Everything seems to fit in place.. (:

Anyway, remember my outing with the people of EIPIC?

With all the family and kids.. I was identified as a potential leader by the workers there..

And from there, further selected as the committee member!

I got the admin post.. Which is something like a secretary.. Lol..

Wonder if i can do well on it.. But then, think it's gonna be fun, and challenging!

I feel honoured.. Like seriously... Gonna try my best on it!

There'll be meetings going on frequently in the future! haha...

I'm excited.. Because we're going to plan and execute an event on November!

My first ever event that i'm gonna organise!

Yay.. It's something i've always had an interest in... :D

Gambatte Jasmine!

Oh yeah, Love does not wait. Grab it when it's here. (:

2010-07-19T21:50:00.003+08:00

Updated with new songs which i'm in love now.. :D
Replaying and replaying in me...

Had a formal lesson in class today.. Everyone looks good in formal.. (:
And it's fun to dress up once in awhile... Haha..
Oh well, did a resume and was the only team up to present it..
Got some suggestions and recommendations by my classmates and Faci..
I'll save this and save up the trouble for another resume in the future! Lol.. xD

Oh yeah! National day will be here soon.. I love National Day... haha. :DD

2010-07-18T23:56:00.002+08:00

Had a great time with dad, ah ma and sis at resorts world just now..
But shoot. I reached home late, and i didn't have time to do anything..
But still, it was fun.. I saw CHEN HONG YU. If you know who he is?
Damn hot guy.. Like really! Haha.. People always tel me he's good looking...
But i always disagree.. But then, it feels different when you see him in real!
He looks good.. Haha! There's this charisma that he gives out... Like DBSK. xD
Anyway, he's wearing a v neck black long sleeved shirt and jeans, and it's good enough... (:

Tmr is Enterprise and formal wear for lesson!
Ahh.. Think it'll feel wierd.. But no choice?

Oh ya oh ya.. Had a DBSK marathon on Seoul.fm from 10pm to 11pm.
Fan girling with Katie and Xueer.. LOL.. Cool and fun! :D
That's why i still can't slp.. lol..
Goodbye~ ! :D

Be back to blog more! :D

2010-07-11T23:10:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i wish i can sleep forever...
There are so many things going on.. Which are worse when they're not going well..
For example, i feel so ... when i see 4 pages of pre-reading for enterprise when i wanna slp.. ):
Of course there are happy and fun things going on...
But they are not enough to motivate me.. I need more!!
This kind of life sucks... I hate it when school starts and everyone starts to get busy...
There's not even time to even stay in contact with others.. Sad... ):

UT is here again... Which is why i haven't been updating much i guess..
Have to study ABIT. Which takes up some of my limited time...
Ahhh.. anyway, 2 more UTS to go... It'll be a quick one..
UT 1 was like shit.. Hope the 2nd one will not be as shitty.. ):
Don't ask me how much i got.. Because i don't feel and don't wanna talk about it anymore...

Need some sleep now.. but i have 2 things undone..
Enterprise pre reading and maths to study..
Either or neither? I don't know...

That is why, i just feel like running away.. from all this....
Crap.

2010-07-01T22:35:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was Eugene's Birthday.. So we had a little surprise for him!
Actually Poon wanted something special.. But in the end, plan was cancelled..
Anyway, Esmond faci was very sweet! Knew that it's Eugenius bday, and went to buy a cake for him! Sweet right? haha.. So caring... (:
Took lots of pictures and sang a birthday song for him..

These are some of the pictures taken from my Webcam.. :D
More on FB, go check it out! (:

Random Chittoo in the picture.. xD

The birthday boy! :D

Anyway anyway, recently i was called up to take a survey from the Ministry of Health.

50 dollar CASH for less than an hour survey at home! Good money!

6500 people selected, 1 household in the block, one member in the family. I'm lucky right? :D

SOMEBODY ONCE SAID, "THE MORE YOU KNOW SOMEONE, THE MORE FLAWS YOU'LL FIND.." I REPLIED, BUT THAT'S WHEN YOU'LL START TO ACCEPT THE FLAWS BECAUSE IT'S SOMEONE IMPORTANT TO YOU... ISN'T IT?

"IF YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE, IMU, MY FRIEND...."

2010-06-28T13:50:00.008+08:00

I wanna update about saturday's event! lol..

I went to help out for the EPIC Family Day at Choa chu kang park.. (:

A total of 30 plus volunteers from SLC went to help out..

And i was one of them! haha.. SLC is Service learning club.. Which is my IG in RP. (:

Anyway, it was a mini family day for the autism kids and their family...

We had fun piecing up puzzles and drawing faces with them..

All the kids are very cute.. And don't look unwell at all...

Anyway, there are 2 little boys who made great impressions on me...

This little boy, didn't want to speak, or he couldn't speak.. Whenever i go near him, he shuns. ):

But slowly, he's willing to take a marker from me, take oreos which i wanna give to him, play high 5!, and shake hands too.. haha.. :D

I took notice of him because he's really quiet, and i wanna talk to him..

He's just so cute.. but he couldn't talk.. I wanna know what he's thinking...

And for this boy, he's only 2 years plus.. Small cutie.. haha..

His name is Firqy! That's what his mum said.. (:

He likes to shout, and gets all high by himself.. Scribling and shouting during drawing.. xD

And i got to carry him! so cute.. heh heh. :D

I carried him around.. And brought him to play bubbles.. And you know what?

He was so happy to see that! He kept saying something like, "wa! wa! wa!".... Cute isn't it?

And he looked so engrossed.. His sis took a picture of us together..

I seriously love this pic.. (:

Simple, and nice!

Anyway, the event ended in the afternoon.. Had a MChicken and apple pie for lunch, and HSH.

Went to work in the late afternoon though.. But overall, it was a wonderful day. :D

2010-06-24T22:30:00.002+08:00

Ahhh.. i have so much to say..
But i'm so tired and lazy.. ): goodnight peeps.
I'll update more... Soon..

reminiscence

2010-06-21T20:35:00.004+08:00

Recently have been back to blogging.. (:
It feels like the only place where i can talk on what i want..
Seriously i prefer writing.. I can think of what i want before writing..
I can write down important events.. So whenever i look back, i'll be able to look at the past, and reminisce... (:
We had something new in enterprise lesson today..
It's something new, and interesting.. It was quite slacky too.. lol.. And fun.. (:
Because i had a bunch of great thinkers and speakers in my group..
And all of them were guys.. lol.. especially Khair, Darryl and Eugene? Good speakers i think..
Which made everything much easier... (:

Tomorrow will be science.. And i have work after school..
For consecutive 2 days.. I wonder if i'll be ok.. I hope so though..
Oh well, gonna finish on my RJ and some stuffs..
Before i can get some sleep..

I don't wanna think. I want my mind to be blank.
I'm avoiding it i know. But that's what i want isn't it?

2010-06-19T00:09:00.003+08:00

Today was the worst day in class ever.
Because i _____. So embarrassing. Really. ):
Don't know why the sudden emotion either. Or maybe it wasn't sudden. It was accumulated.
Seems like Poon is very observant... Saw what happened.
But anyway, wanna know what happened?
I guess the day wasn't going well in the first place le..
Raj and eugene with the mood swing and sickness, my mind with it's white blank for the whole lesson, and when adding on to what i was feeling at the start, it totally sucks. ):
Feeling bad inside i guess...
Maybe it was because i was partly reponsible for the late submission?
I don't mind me you know.. But i think i've implicated the others.
That was the reason i guess..

I guess i guess... Everything is my guess-timation.
To a point where i don't even know it's correct or not....

Anyway, please don't bring up a point of a "secret" when you have no intention of saying it at all..
Why in the first place let me hear enough to guess?
Let me hear enough to wanna know more?
And ask me about what i wanted to know?
But in the end, say it's nothing?
It makes me angry you see... and i don't wanna dislike you for nothing.

Thia is the only place for me to speak out... for what i feel...

2010-06-15T19:29:00.005+08:00

I WAS VERY PISSED OFF JUST NOW BECAUSE OF A FEW STUPID ________.
I WAS WALKING TO WOODLANDS CONTROL STATION FROM SCH.
WAS WALKING PASS OSC. AFEW ________ ARE SITTING ON THE BENCHES.
AND WHILE WALKING, I COULD HEAR THEM SHOUTING FROM MY BACK, " Wah! RP girls so ugly!" WTF.
THAT MOMENT I WAS DAMN ANGRY.
ALMOST WANTED TO TURN BACK AND YELL ON THEM TO SHUT UP.
BUT I DIDN'T. DIDN'T WANT TO SEE THEIR DISGUSTING FACE AND MAKE MYSELF PUKE.
WHO ARE THEY TO DISCRIMINATE US? PLEASE LAH. I THINK THEY DIDN'T TAKE A LOOK IN THE MIRROR SINCE THE DAY THEY WERE BORN.
THEIR LOOKS ARE SERIOUSLY NORMAL AND THEY WANNA JEER AT PEOPLE?
IDIOTS. DON'T LET ME SEE THEM AGAIN.

Those are idiotic people who are just too free isn't it?
Finding things to keep themselves occupied.. Making them look so silly and stupid. =.=

Anyway, on a bright side, the dragon boat festival would be here on wed! :)
Know why i'm happy? Because i love eating rice dumplings! Especially those done by my Ah Yi they all. It's hard work ok!
I used to help them with some easy stuffs in the past.
However, as i grow up, time is geting more limited and i can't go anymore.. ):
But nevertheless, we still recieve the lovely dumplings from them every year!
It really taste very nice very nice! Because it's done with lots of hard work and love, and most importantly, filled with alot of ingredients! haha...
Yummy yummy~~! :D

Hmmm... And also, i think i should say it clearly here..
I know you can sense it.. I don't know why i'm doing that too..
Until ytd night when i was thinking about school then i realised my actions..
I guess i don't wanna think about all this for now.
Or should i say, i'm avoiding. I wanna concentrate on my studies, on my family now...
I just wanna be my mummy's good girl, going home aft sch, helping her with house work, and helping dad with stuffs..
Can i say that alot had happened during the holidays?
I gave life alot of thought.. Life is short. And i don't wanna waste away my time with my family..
In the past, all i had in my mind was work and friends..
I never really had time with my family... There were days where i would be out everyday, but not with them, but in my world of work and entertainment...
It felt really good to stay at home.. To watch the TV with them.. To talk to them..
Even though there are times where we would quarrel, but they are still they ones i love the most..
I want time with them.
I want happiness with them.
I want memories with them. (:

Before It's too late...

2010-06-10T15:39:00.004+08:00

Whenever dad tells us about his operation, i get all the creeps...
My hand feels numb.. and my heart feels weak...
And sometimes i'll shiver.. Think everyone will feel that way when they see the scar..
The very very long stitches on his chest, stomach, and thighs...
It's really damn scary.. And when you imagine what they are doing, it feels even worse...
He'll tel us about the pain he experienced.. Especially the very painful one his neck..
Eeee... Omg.. i can feel the creeps again..
Don't talk about it anymore.. =.=

ANYWAY, recently I've taken a liking for Thai Songs..
Credits to TYT. LOL..
But the fact is, some sounds nice... And the lyrics are damn meaningful.. (:
Enjoy k! haha.. :D

2010-06-07T23:58:00.002+08:00

Dad will be discharged tomorrow... Which is something good...
Finally tmr will be the last day that we have to take long train and bus rides to and fro...
That is certainly tiring because the journey would take at least an hr for train, and hr plus or 2 for bus.. Irritating isn't it?
Anyway, i think i'll miss the Kopitiam there which i visited eveyday too..
They took care of all my meals for me... Haha..
But the food there is not really nice... Of course not all, but some of the stalls..
Hmmm... Why am i comparing the food there? because i seriously think i'll miss that place.. Lol..

I've seen alot of different people, different things during the visits...
Especially RUDE PEOPLE which makes my heart boils, or even nice people which are very friendly.. (:
I DON'T KNOW WHY SOME PEOPLE JUST LIKE TO CALL THE KETTLE BLACK WHEN THEY ARE THE STUPIT POTTT.
Ridicously arrogant fellows which think they are great when they are LOUSY.
Really lor.. Thinking back, i still pity them in the first place... =.=
Not worthy at all... *angry*

Forget about those insignificant people...
Talking about dad, i wonder why he always makes us worry..
Maybe guys like to act strong.. They do extreme stuffs to show that they can, but it doesn't really impress us but make us worry only...
Hais... Mummy have had enough to do for the past week.
HOPE that life will be better when Dad is home?
That's what i hope lah.. At least it gives me hope....

2010-06-03T23:02:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow will be the operation day...
Hope everything goes well.. I'm starting to feel anxious now..
I don't know how mummy is feeling..
But one thing i know for sure, she's worried.
She doesn't tell us much on it.. But i know she's very very worried..
Something to do with the heart is nothing small at all..

Sis is not back yet.. i bet a million that she's very tired with work and the visits.. ):
But mummy has even more things to do.. I wonder how she does that... Hais..
There are actually so many things on my mind which i really wanna put down..
But i don't know if it's appropriate or not.. Better don't...

Hmmm.. Oh ya.
And there's another thing i know for sure, it's gonna be ok.

2010-05-31T01:36:00.002+08:00

So many things are happening this month...
Seriously i think i need time.
A whole load of Time.
I'm like damn confused now.
Can i have a day which i can just rot at home?
I need some serious rotting time.

2010-05-31T01:23:00.005+08:00

I wanted to post on sat... all the fun things that we had...
But some news just got me... stunned.
I seriously don't know what to say... all i needed was more time..
And you couldn't give it to me...
I was shocked.. or should i say, disappointed..
In fact, shaken.
It was the second time i heard that from you..
Since it's something so easy to waver on, it means it's something not important at all..
Then, there's no need to consider anymore.
Just give it up.

I think, _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .

2010-05-29T00:34:00.002+08:00

The train was like freaking long while waiting for it at jurong east! ><
It took around 7 mins? it's longer than usual..

Anyway, Poon and Andy went to sushi tei to look for me!
So touched... haha.. Poon so funny de... She's cute de lor.. love her.. xD

Will be going for the national family day event at sentosa tmr..
It's to accumulate CE points.. No choice...
Oh well... hope everything will go well!!
And then after that will be celebrating QY's birthday.. (:

It's like 1 plus in the morning le.. I seriously need to get some slp..
Goodnight peeps! but before i go,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SONG QIU YI!
Haha.. Hope you stay, happy, healthy, and pretty always!
You're definately prettier than asrinah without doubt! xP
And i know you'll definately enjoy your day because there's us! lol...
You're Loved by W16C, and of course me! (:
Happy birthday once again! (:

2010-05-26T20:52:00.002+08:00

Finally all the test are over! I'm seriously happy about it..
But maths and programming UT is a confirm fail le.. don't think i even understand half of the questions... ):

I feel so tired in school today.. So, i'm hoping that i can slp early today!
Hopefully before 11pm? (:
Hmmm..
I actually have alot of things to write..
But my mind always goes blank when i really write...
Too bad then.. ):

looks like my hopes of sleeping are smashed because i'm only going to sleep after posting this.
Which is, 12am.
goodnight peeps.
The holidays are here. :D

2010-05-24T22:14:00.003+08:00

Oh man.. I'm not feeling too good now...

Not too good not in terms of my body but my mind. ):

It's saddening de lor.. Hais...

AND IT ALWAYS HAPPEN ON ME! ):

Like so unluckly lor..

BUT NVM. I KNOW TOMORROW WILL BE BETER. (:

BECAUSE I'M NOT GOING TO LET SELF-FULILLING ERROR HAPPEN TO ME. xD

Oh ya.. thanks Raj.. for the jokes.. xD

see your nice hair joke... haha!

Hmmm hmmm... have been like the joke for the class for the past few days..

I wonder if it's something good though..

I'm afraid....

2010-05-20T18:23:00.001+08:00

MARCUS TAN WEI QUAN!
YOU HAVE NOT INVITED ME TO YOUR BLOG! WHEN ARE YOU DOING THAT?! Lol.. xD

2010-05-18T21:42:00.000+08:00

"Nevertheless, I'm happy...
how would (I) explain everything...
Faith
In the end, it's scary
expressing yourself, if expressing it made you laugh
for me as well, this path
of revising (my) life
is not something that can easily be chosen
for whatever reason...

Hello We Are...
This was...
Thank you...

Miss this more than anyone. "

Source: link
Translated by: Jaerotic@LJ
Shared by: Omonatheydidn't@LJ + DBSKnights

Yoochun oppa, I know.

):

2010-05-18T00:01:00.002+08:00

Adding in abit of spice, sugar, and junsu (everything nice) to save me from falling asleep.
You can listen to it too.. I'm just mesmerized by the voice. :D

Kanashimi no Yukue
(Lyrics, composed, and arranged by Shinjiroh Inoue)

教えてくれないか　心はまだ救えるかな
Oshiete kurenaika kokoroha mada sukuerukana
I want to know if our souls can still be saved

消えない足跡を残すように　時を掛け違う
Kienai ashiatowo nokosuyouni tokiwo kakechigau
Leaving our lasting marks, we are drifting apart as time ticks away

愛を量り　誰も苦しまない　夢ならいいのに
Aiwo hakari daremo kurushimanai yumenara iinoni
Feeling the weight of love, if it is just a dream where everyone will not suffer

悲しみよ　泣かないで　何も見えなくても
Kanashimiyo nakanaide nanimo mienakutemo
Sadness, please do not weep, even though we can see almost nothing

思い出はそばにある　永遠を埋めて
Omoideha sobaniaru eienowo umete
The memories are by our side, forever and ever

幸せは終わるより変わる方が　僕には寂しい
Shiawaseha owaruyori kawaruhouga bokuniha samishii
For me, happiness changing is more lonely, than happiness coming to an end

言葉が遠くても　想いがただつながるなら
Kotobaga tookutemo omoiga tada tsunagarunara
Even if our words are far away, if we feel connected

僕らを隔ててる傷は癒える　今は叶わない
Bokurawo hedateteru kizuha ieru imaha kanawanai
Our wounds will heal, though it will not be granted for now

あの笑顔　無理に引き裂く雨　いつまで続く
Ano egao murini hikisaku ame itsumade tsuduku
How long are the rainy days, that tear apart our smiles?

悲しみよ　泣かないで　温もりは去っても
Kanashimiyo nakanaide nukumoriha sattemo
Sadness, please do not weep, even though the warmth has gone

いつだってそばにいる　木枯らしを避けて
Itsudatte sobaniiru kogarashiwo sakete
I will be at your side, avoiding the cold blasts

眠れずに触れた手が　幻でも　僕には　優しい
Nemurezuni fureta tega maboroshi demo bokuniha yasashii
Even if I touch a phantom hand on a sleepless night, I will feel tenderness 　

大切なものひとつだけ　守れる力がほしい
Taisetsuna mono hitotsudake mamoreru chikaraga hoshii
I want the strength to protect my only one jewel

孤独の意味に堪える　痛みなら受け入れるよ
Kodokuno imini kotaeru itaminara ukeireruyo
Battling loneliness, I will live with aches and pains

悲しみよ　泣かないで　何も見えなくても
Kanashimiyo nakanaide nanimo mienakutemo
Sadness, please do not weep, even though we can see almost nothing

思い出は　そばにある　永遠を埋めて
Omoideha sobaniaru eienwo umete
The memories are by our side, forever and ever

幸せは終わるより　変わる方が　僕には寂しい　
Shiawaseha owaruyori kawaruhouga bokuniha samishii
For me, happiness changing is more lonely, than happiness coming to an end

Source: leleexx @ youtube
Translation: smiley @ OneTVXQ.com
Credits: OneTVXQ.com { One World. One Red Ocean. One TVXQ! }
Feel free to repost, but please leave the full credits intact. Thanks!

2010-05-17T22:31:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps, how are you?
Alot of things happened recently.
Seriously alot of things happened.
There are of course good and bad ones..
Hmmm... something just made me feel that life is so fragile..
It's so difficult to survive, but so easy to fall..
Like what i've said, why do we all have to work so hard to be only history in the end?
History is a nice word. To be harsh, its a memory, and then we're nothing.

Isn't it real?
People might say that's how life is. Thats how i think and say when i console people too.
But it's all so contradicting.. Who wants life to end? especially when it's a loved one?

And when people tel me that my life is a joke. Even if it's a joke from them, i take it seriously.
I wouldn't want to reply them at all. Even if i might be smiling at them.
It's just basic courtesy that i wouldn't say that your life is a joke.
How would you know if my life is a joke when you're not me?
God didn't create us to be jokes ok.

Hmmm.. People are saying why i'm getting so emotional recently.
I'm not getting really sad over something or whatever. I just think over things more clearly now.
And saying what i'm feeling since it's the only place here for what i want to say.
But don't worry, i'm ok.. really ok!! (: trust me...

Oh well, and i love this. (:

"I didnt want to admit it,
It was easier to lie,
And hide the hurt and,
Emptiness, to smile instead of cry...

I lock away the Pain,
Put away the Fears,
Show you only the Smiles,
Not the hidden Tears..."

It's just so meaningful. (:

2010-05-11T22:46:00.003+08:00

You're making me don't feel like talking to you anymore..
BECAUSE you're ignoring me..
Even if you don't think so, because i think so. It's obvious.

That's my new wallpaper.
KIM JUNSU. <3

2010-05-09T22:07:00.002+08:00

I don't know if you'll be reading this..
But i hope that everything will still be perfectly normal...
I'll be your awesome friend, and you'll still be mine..
Seriously i don't know what happened to me...
Getting so moody recently...
stupid me...

I think i'm too sensitive...
Tell me if you see this? I just wanna know that you know...

And anyway, school tomorrow..
I'm feeling the monday blues already..
I'm always so contradicting.. I wanna go school but i don't wanna go school..
How good is that.. ):
Know that complaining doesn't help... But i still wanna complain..

2010-04-25T16:28:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO SIS!!!
OMG.. Time just flies! My sis is already 21! And it'll soon be mine...
But anyway, it's a happy occasion today!

Hmmm... I'm glad she likes my present too..
I put in alot of effort and time de... (:

Tmr is monday again! And i have school and work... BORING!
But no choice.. study for the cert, work for the money, do for my future.. hais!
It's very troublesome to think about what to wear every morning too...
But then again, no choice... Jiayou jiayou! jiayou for everyone too.. (:

2010-04-20T15:29:00.000+08:00

After what you've said, i feel like crying...

2010-04-20T12:40:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOD. I"M SO BORED MAN!
Today's lesson is maths.. I don't really like maths. Thats why i'm not participating alot in class.. ):
Oh well, today is going yo end already.. just hope it's not as bad in the game later..

2010-04-17T01:13:00.001+08:00

Crying helps alot, alot, alot....

2010-04-12T19:21:00.002+08:00

Oh well, orientation wasn't as bad as i thought it would be..
Even though it was abit boring at first.. Got to know some new friends.. (:
Hmmmm... but all seems so young... starting to feel old already..
But then, another shocking thing just happened...
It's shocking to me lah.. haha.. unexpected.. not something good or bad though.. just some random sudden thing.. xP
Hmmm... think i shld take up a CCA in sch?
Still considering.. Because it'll take up a huge chunk of my precious time away...

So shld i go for the 2nd day of orientation? hais...
So frustrating luh!

2010-04-09T08:41:00.000+08:00

I knew it.
It's always like that.
Forever not what i wanted.

2010-04-09T01:23:00.000+08:00

How how how?
I have so many things to say, so many things to do..
And they are still unsaid, undone.
I just can't pluck up my courage and stubborness, and laziness...
Ahhhh... I wanna scream....
That feeling is seriously not good at all... it sucks... ):

Hais!

2010-04-07T15:48:00.000+08:00

I can tell you everything i'm feeling except for the way I feel about you?

2010-04-05T02:44:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah, I got into Republuc Poly. (:

2010-03-24T19:03:00.000+08:00

Met up with katie yesterday! Long time nv meet her le..

Was really happy to have a simple lunch and chat with her.. (:

Went Jurong point, and had lunch at KFC..

Although i was having flu, i still had fried stuffs.. haha..

Thats called, "YI DU GONG DU". xD

Luckily i was feeling alot better today...

Chatted on alot of stuffs.. from random ppl to DBSK.. haha..

Funny and amusing.. :D

Maybe it was because i was very excited on news from DBSK, I DREAMT ABOUT THEM AGAIN! haha!

This time was funny lor.. I shall not say it here.. ask me if you want.. xP

But i shook hands with the 2 MR KIMS'!

Anyway i also only dreamt about both of them..

Maybe because we were talking about Junsu and Jaejoong coming to SG.. (:

YES! KIM JUNSU IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!

HOW GOOD IS THAT!! :D

The best thing ever can.. haha... xD

Photo of the day~

2010-03-09T01:59:00.000+08:00

I fell.
Fell hard onto the floor.
It feels bad enough to fall.
But it felt even worse later.
I'm so stupid. Stupid and clumsy to fall.
Stupid, and clumsy, and naive to believe it all.
Just plain stupid.

Because just when i thought that you were someone i can talk to, you left me.

2010-02-14T22:17:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
It's been a long time since i last posted isn't it? ><
Oh well, decided i should post something since it's the cny... haha..
Went to my ah ma hse in the aftnoon..
Ate, chatted, and went to have dinner at mayim.. Lol..
Shall upload the pics if i can.. and soon i hope.. (:
I really miss my ah ma alot.. recently had been working and rushing on my report..
It's really nice that i could spend the day with her..
Went to take neoprints with her too!! which is lol! haha.. and of course with my 2 sisters..
I think it's so cute luh.. haha... let her keep a piece for memory...
Since it's her first time today.. xD
Tmr will be going to mum's side for visiting... (:

I have applied for poly courses le.. Hope i can really get into one ba..
It had always been my target after getting into an ITE..
And i seriously don't know what to do if i can't... ):
So, " I KEEP PRAYING, WON'T FORGET. I'LL KEEP THE FAITH ETERNALLY!"
It applies for DBSK too! (:

OH YA OH YA.
KIM JUNSU WILL BE COMING TO SINGAPORE~!
KNOW WHO'S KIM JUNSU?
OF COURSE YOU KNOW ISN'T IT?
IT'S KIM JUNSU FROM DONG BANG SHIN KI!
I'M GETTING SO HIGH AND EXCITED ABOUT IT... LOL..
I'M SURE THAT I'LL STALK HIM... VERY SURE... xD

KIMJUNSU, HERE YOU COME, AND HERE I COME!!!! xD HAHA!
1 MAY IS THE BIGDAY. =D

DBSK'S - with all my heart preview.. =))
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1nLVipf-gok&feature=player_embedded

I love the songs alot.. But i love the pics more.. xD

2009-11-28T17:27:00.002+08:00

Wonder it's just another joke or prank of yours?

My love for you goes on and on and on..
It's my words for you, DBSK. Stay strong, stay happy. (:

2009-11-13T13:22:00.002+08:00

Every weekday is just so boring for me...
It was definately a wrong choice...
Now what i can hope for is for time to pass quickly..
And CNY to quickly arrive! LOL...
Having my lunch break now..
Got to go back le... ):
Bye peeps.

Oh ya..these few days i always see 1 guy whose side view looks so much like CHANGMIN!!!
I feel so blessed every morning.. LOL.
And the best thing is, he boards the train at CCK too.. xDD

I MISS DBSK SOOOOO MUCH. ):
I WANT THEIR INFO SO MUCH!
ANYONE?? You can msg me you know... (:

2009-10-15T22:31:00.003+08:00

Got back my results le! 3.5gpa! I'm happy with it... =))))
Was so nervous when teacher said that he will be giving back to us when he was supposed to brief us on the attachment..
But lucky it was not bad..
Had been allocated to DHL for attachment...
Actually it's not a suprise...XX and her sis helped me with it... =))
But it's so damn far again...Changi can..
Lucky it's only for 4 months..2 years in simei had already passed like that... =)

2009-09-19T01:29:00.002+08:00

Today is just not my day? I don't know...
I just threw away my face in front of the whole ss.t, and in front of 2 new staffs....
And worst of all, i did a stupid and unreasonable act...
I was bad. A very bad person and friend..
When i knew what you wanted to do meant no harm at all..

I'm Sorry.
I'm Sorry.
I'm Sorry.
I'm Sorry.
I'm Sorry.
I'm Sorry.
I'm Sorry.
I'm Sorry.
I'm Sorry.
I'm Sorry.

Sincerely typed out 10 times... To say i'm sorry...
I really think i'm still like a little child.. There are so many things that i don't understand at all...
And i always thought i'm matured enough...

I wish for a better day tomorrow....

Fly away, fly away, love....

2009-09-13T16:19:00.004+08:00

Woohoo! New blogskin...LOL.
It's very striking though... Expect to change it soon... xP
But i've been editing it for a long time le..
It's supposed to be ORANGE! HAHA!

And have you guys ever heard of [River flows in you]?
I heard my sis playing it on the Piano...And it's been repeating in my head ever since...
It's a very nice melody!! ^^
And i think this one on my playlist is by a famous Pianist de ba... (:

I WANNA GO H.U.G FORUM TO LOOK AT NEWS AND STUFFS!!
I WANNA SEE YUNHO'S [HEADING TO THE GROUD]!!!!
I WANNA SEE DBSK'S CONCERT AT TOKYO DOME!!
I WANNA SEE AADBSK3 VIDEOS!!!!

BUT I HAVE NO TIME!!! I WANT TO CRY! ):

2009-09-13T14:29:00.003+08:00

HELLO PEEPS! I'm here to blog again! haha...
The pictures are finally here to greet you! xD
Here are some D&D Pictures.... (:
My *soon* is like so late can...

Yenny, boh Ching, Me

Wee Kiat, Me

Me, Yi Rong

Me, Toki

Haha! Random Pic on DAMA dancing! xD

Marcus, me, Li Hui, Yenny

Ah Kang, Me, Marcus

Ah Kang, me

And look at this.. A MAN WAS KILLED BECAUSE HE DIDN'T KNOW THE SONG "NOBODY"...
http://www.allkpop.com/index.php/full_story/man_killed_because_he_didnt_know_nobody/
He was so innocent... ):

AADBSK-night game!

KIM JUNSU'S - White Lies...
Shared by Mrs Park..Thanks alot.. (:

Look at the lyrics ok? It's so damn touching....
Junsu didn't even realize that Yunho included his name in it..

2009-09-02T12:07:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOD SUN. LOOK AT THIS MAN! SO BEAUTIFUL!!

Watch it full screen or in youtube!!! xD

2009-08-25T23:43:00.003+08:00

Ok...Well, i decided to post something...
It's been a long time since i last updated le...I don't want spiderwebs on it..haha...
Anyway, i had fun with my DINO family at XinWang Cafe and Raffles the other day...
SK Papa was damn funny lor..There was a video on him...But i have no time to find... ):

And Went out with SS.T peeps for Movie on 13th aug...
Watch G.I Joe...Nice leh! Even though i rarely watch and recommend action shows... xD
Hmmm..It was a chance to go out with A bang too...He's going back le...Thats why... (:

Okok...I know that my stuffs are SO outdated...
But i wanted to just say it out...for my own reference...haha...
And and,

THE SUSHI TEI DINNER AND DANCE YESTERDAY WAS SO FUN!!!
HAHA. So high can... xP Especially the people from RAFFLES CITY OUTLET.
And thats the outlet i'm in... xD
Didn't eat much though...most of the time was listening and participating to the games...
Screaming was the only thing i kept doing at the dinner...
Maybe even more than eating?? There's a high possibility...haha...
Doesn't sound like a dinner right? more like bonding session.. xP
But overall it's still a dinner... (:

We got a beanie pillow with "SUSHI TEI" on it as a door gift!!
So nice de...It's black in colour...and it's VIBRATABLE! Lol...
I meant it vibrates.. xP so cool hor...haha...
And there are people taking pictures for us to put it in a keychain! I like it very much... (:
It's such a rare and special gift i think.. =D
Very professional..if can, i shall post the pic here...
And i hope to get the pics from my colleagues soon!!
I'll be back soon to post the pictures! haha...
I hope it'll be soon.... (:

2009-08-15T01:19:00.002+08:00

HOT HOT HOT!!!
Mr Shim is soo hot!! xD
Picture of you with english subs! ^^

And for Junsu Lovers...

Yes...It's for me too..LOL...I love him as much as Changmin... xP

Junsu's mirotic solo cuts... =)

And, NOTHING BETTER, BY DBSK.
LYRICS BY SHIM CHANGMIN.
Cannot deny that he's talented...Haha! xD Listen to it!

I know that some of you gets bored with my DBSK fandom...lol..

I swear i'll post a proper one next week...

Because it takes some time... ><

But soon ok! ^^

I'll be your guiding light, and wait for you.... (:

2009-08-11T18:54:00.005+08:00

A song that Yoochunie posted on his cyworld..Its's a nice song! (:

Cayman Islands by Kings of convenience

Through the alleyways to cool off in the shadows
then into the street following the water
there's a bearded man paddling in his canoe
looks as if he has come all the way from the cayman islands

these canals, it seems, they all go in circles
places look the same, and we're the only difference
the wind is in your hair, it's covering my view
I'm holding on to you, on a bike we've hired until tomorrow

if only they could see, if only they had been here
they would understand, how someone could have chosen
to go the length I've gone, to spend just one day riding
holding on to you, I never thought it would be this clear

[ And this is WAHAHA!

Xiahmori AKA Xiah Hunting! xD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8F6fU-YJSDA&feature=player_embedded]

2009-08-11T12:14:00.003+08:00

SHIT. I HATE THIS. ):

2009-08-11T10:23:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! LOL. xD
Hope i'll stay happy and healthy always! haha...
I told myself i should be and must be happy today..
And i will... (:
I'm in school now...which is something very disturbing...
I'm thinking about how it will be when we go for ETP later...
Going there with nothing done is confirmed to go there for a scolding de...
But, i can't find time to do.. ):
So, just let it be ba.....

Hmmm...i'm excited about the next few days...
When i get to meet the others out to celebrate my birthday... =]
I wanna thank everyone for their wishes!!
Especially to Katie.. (:
Been friends for around 9 years le...And you're always there for me....
Thank you.

And also to all the sushi tei peeps and my friends!
Wanna thank Yanni for what she've done too!
Yesterday was working..And she knew that today is my birthday...
So she did a very cute Sushi cake for me! Lol...
Very cute and funny de...Then Ah Kang, Ah Weng, ah shun, auntie they all helped out in the decorations!
Ah guang even did a very nice rose petal for me! haha... (:
There's also red eggs.. xP I dunno what it was doing there...haha...By ah Kang.. (:
Sang the birthday song for me too..
Lots of thanks to them... (:
I love all of you. <3

2009-08-10T00:18:00.007+08:00

I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WTH I AM PISSED OFF WITH RIGHT NOW.
JUST FEELING SO ANGRY AND TIRED DEEP DOWN INSIDE. AND I DON'T KNOW WHY.

Anyway, today seems to be a happening day for me?
The freaking first thing i have to see is a indian couple getting cosy, kissing in the lift while buying breakfast for my family.. =.=
Totally stunned for 2 seconds..Then when the girl finally saw me, she pushed the guy away, hold his hands, walked out, and went down by the stairs..
And i think i'm stupid enough to tell them it's the 13th floor..As if they cared... =.=

And then, went out with my Ah ma, dad and sis to settle some things...
It was around the industral area? I guess so...And with little people around...
We were walking walking...Then this dog came charging at us...
Almost scared the soul out of my sis and me...It was so close to us...at most only 2 metres apart from me...
And it barked at us for 2 times...i almost wanted to run...
Luckily it's owner called out to it...SO PLEASE. Look after your pets please... ):

And then, went to the famous bak kut teh stall to have lunch... The food there are really nice... (: Went to bugis after that because ah ma wanted to go to the temple to pray...
Quarrelled with sis for some stupid thing too...maybe because i was really tired le...
My mood was so bad at bugis...kept flaring up at them...i'm so sorry.... ):

And and, something happened on the way back in the bus....
I guess my dad was just being concerned for me ba...But, hais...I don't know what to say...

I've been feeling so emotional these few days...
Crying over the national anthem, singing, watching shows, and even when i'm thinking...
WTH is wrong with me? Definately there is....
Where's my Changmin? ):

Anyway, i got this link from Katie..
Yes. It's on DBSK. SHOO IF YOU'RE NOT INTERESTED.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j1yK146csU0&feature=related

This is [AS 5 FIGHT TILL THE END]. very professional! (:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LGlqdynkJjE&feature=player_embedded

And ever heard of the song - Officially missing you by Tamia?
Oh well, in case you guys don't know, i have it on my playlist... =.=
This is a remix version by Eddie Shin.
DAMN nice cover by him! no korean accent, and it sounds so good! (:
Are you wondering why he didn't release any albums too? haha...
I love the "whoo!" near the ending! xD

Tmr i still have to wake up early despite working at 6pm...
I know i shouldn't complain...But...sometimes it just helps to make us feel better...
This is like a post on complaining and venting out my anger on...
I'm saying sorry to those people i threw tantrums on... I'm Sorry. ):

I thought i could just get over you.
But i guess it's just something i can't do...
My heart just hurts everytime i see your post... And i hate you...

2009-08-07T01:18:00.007+08:00

I can't help but keep on searching for DBSK stuffs these few days...
Anyway, i found some very cute videos hoping that they won't Disband...Haha...
Look like works of young teenager girls...
Take a look...I love the pictures. xD

1) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BPqf9PUT8L4
2) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GcIZsKX78TY
3) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6pTgiFsncC8&NR=1 - Thailand news
4) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vTt8IB80oQM&feature=related - I almost cried when i finished watching this...even though i don't understand what it says...It's so touching....

Yoochun's Tatoo - ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH (:

AND I FOUND THIS DAMN NICE VIDEO!!! LOOK AT IT!!

So cool right?? xP
I loved it...haha...
Always there by DBSK (: Acapella version.
SO SO NICE VOICES. (:

Oh well, have to go to slp le...
Otherwise going to get scolding le...

And i just wanna say, i'll always be there for DBSK. (:

2009-08-05T23:44:00.002+08:00

I heard that SM has new plans now... Like WTH only...
I'm like starting to hate them!! why why why??
Why did things turn out this way?? What the hell is SM doing?? ><

[TRANS] 09.08.04 TVXQ, The International Fans' Worried Hearts...
"Fans from all over the world are showing their worry and support for TVXQ. They are sending letters that all say one thing: regardless of the current dispute between SM and the three members, the fans will support TVXQ no matter what and a disbandment is not something they want.

On the international UCC site 'Youtube', the video that lasts around 5 minutes showing hundreds and hundreds of letters addressed to TVXQ was uploaded on the 4th.

They expressd their feelings with shaky Korean penmanship, but also confessed their thoughts through their native tongues or English. They all had the same message of 'Forever as 5' and 'Always keep the faith.'

TVXQ's influence in the world could be seen from the people's names and the stated countries. Singapore, Malaysia, Indonesia, Thailand, Vietnam, Philippines, India, Spain, Sweden, Norway, Denmark, Germany, Australia, Finland, Japan, UK, USA, Peru, Brunei, France, Sri Lanka..."

Ahhh...you should have seen more in Joycelyn's blog...
See what the fans have done... It's so touching...

Like they say,
5-3=0
5-1=0
DBSK will always be 5 together.

A video on the messages to oppas... (:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UUFMxrGAaaI&fmt=18

Anyway, finished my cdn paper just now...
Hope it was ok...I think no A's though... ><
I don't understand why everyone have so many problems to fret over..
And i think i have exeptionally extra...
I don't know why... ):

SS.T's D&D will be here soon!!
But i've not prepared for it yet...hope can prepare on time? (:
Got to go...School tmr...
And work! I wanna eat Chawanmushi and tamago ss. xD
Nights everyone...
^^

2009-08-04T18:11:00.004+08:00

There's CDN paper tmr..
And till now, i still dunno anything about it...
ARGH!! I will study later though..hope it helps... ):

Went for napfa test just now...and the 2.4km, kills.
So tiring lor...and i got lousy results..
I was so tired just now...slept so little for the past few days...
Really slept through the whole journey back home..
So went to take a nap just now...

SO MANY DAMN FURUSTRING THINGS ON MIND NOW.
DBSK, MONEY, FAMILY, SCHOOL...
WISH I COULD JUST THROW EVERYTHING OFF MY MIND...

Anyway people, you can sign a petition here for DBSK. (:
http://www.petitiononline.com/mod_perl/signed.cgi?TVXQCASS&1

And, you may look at joycelyn's and the dbsk links for more info on them...
SM entertainment. Hmmm...

Don't worry. We have faith in you, oppas. ♥

2009-08-02T02:57:00.003+08:00

ARGH!! SOMETHING WRONG WITH BLOGGER!
ALL THAT I TYPED WAS GONE!! O.O!!!
HAIS HAIS!! NO MOOD NOW.
HAVE TO GO SLP OTHERWISE MIGHT REALLY TURN INTO A ZOMBIE TMR... =.=
CAN LOOK AT MY PLURK FOR UPDATES THOUGH..
NIGHTS.

2009-07-29T22:55:00.004+08:00

Hello! Oh well...this seems lame...
In low mood status now because there's school and work tmr...
Have to wake up so early for school..
And, i thought of my previous CDN and BCM test that i've not done well...
So...not very happy.. ):

Hmmm...But i'll always feel better when i listen to DBSK'S voices..
I Love Changmin's high and powerful voice.
Love Junsu's husky and unique voice.
Love Jaejoong's smooth and alluring voice.
Love Yoochun's sexy and "man" voice.
Love Yunho's low and soft voice.
Such great singers are hard to find you know.. (:
I'm so happy to get to know them. Someone who cheers me up on my worst days...
Someone who keeps me going...haha.. xD
It's only DONG BANG SHIN KI. I SWEAR I'LL LOVE THEM FOREVER. ♥

Oh well, August will be here soon!! haaha..
It's the month of the year that i always like.. xP
Because there's national day! And, something else... xP
Hmmm...hope i can meet up with Katie, gf, yj they all at the 14th!
It's been confirmed...but i'm still afraid there's last min changes...
Hope there's not! (:

And, i think 내가 당신에게 호감을 가지고.

2009-07-28T09:29:00.004+08:00

OMG!! I SAW DBSK ON TV YESTERDAY!!
I THINK IT WAS A CAMPAIGN PROMOTING KOREA~
WAHAHA! SO HAPPY. xD
CAN ASK MY SIS..I SHOUTED OUT WHEN I SAW THEM..
I SHOUTED, "EH!"
THEN MY SIS WAS READING HER BOOK..
SHE LOOKED UP AND SAID, "WHAT?"
I REPLIED, " DBSK!" *happy*
THEN SHE GAVE THAT AS IF NOTHING HAPPENED FACE AND WENT BACK TO HER BOOK.. =.=
HAHA..OK..MAYBE I'M ABIT EXTREME.
BUT WE RARELY SEE THEM ON TV MA! I'M JUST SO HAPPY NOW.. xD
I THINK THEY ARE PERFPRMING MIROTIC!!
SAW KIM JUNSU ONLY!! BUT NVM! I'M SURE I'LL SEE THAT ADVERTISEMENT AGAIN.. XP

DBSK IS LOVE CAN. ^^

2009-07-22T14:17:00.002+08:00

BACK TO BLOGGING......
Hmmm...today didn't go for class...because, really very tired.. ><
And the main point is nobody is going...so....
Hais..show you my timetable for this week..

MON:
9am - 5pm, School.

TUES:

8am - 4pm, School.

6pm - 10.30pm, Work.

WED:
8am - 9.30am, SW.
3pm - 5pm, Forklift lesson.
(didn't go for both.. ><)
6pm - 10.30pm, Work.

THURS:
8am - 4pm, School
6pm - 10.30pm, Work

FRI:
8am - 10am, School
6pm - 10.30pm, Work

SAT:
11.30am - 10.30pm, Work.

SUN:
10am - 3pm, Work.

See?? working 6 days straight in a row...
Because there's a serious shortage of people now....
Just hope i won't feel so tired lor... ><

Yesterday swee koon very funny lor...said he wanted to open a blogshop...
Said he wanted to hire me as accountant..haha...
Will see if it really happens.. xP
Because, talk is easy..do is hard.. =)

Anyway, i just wanna say, today is 22nd july. LOL. xD

2009-07-19T12:28:00.002+08:00

- A quiz from facebook.
Your life is best described by the movie "Beauty and the Beast".
You are different from most people. You enjoy reading books and you are very intelligent.
You do not judge people on what they look like but who they are inside.
This helps you to form really deep and wonderful friendships with many different people. Through your uniqueness you will transform the world into a better place. . (:

My sis showed me this damn cute video.. Haha..
Take a look! (:

Anyway, was working for the past few days...
Getting abit bored... ><
Hais...i was actually dreading to go for work on friday...
Which was a long lost feeling...all thanks to that _____. =.=

Heard that we part timers have to try out opening too le?
I wanna try luh...haha...learn abit new things ma... (:

Have anyone heard of the rumors that there's going to be a tsunami on 22nd of july ?
Which is only 2 days away...Hmmm...
I'm not going to believe it though..no reports on it...
But JieShi is so afraid of it...lol...very funny and cute lor...haha...
She's still young ma... xD

Going for work again later...
Hope today will be better.. (:

2009-07-17T15:13:00.002+08:00

I JUST GOT TO KNOW SOMETHING VERY SHOCKING.
AND MY SIS WANTS TO KNOW..WHICH I'LL TEL HER SOON...
HAHA... ><

HAIS.
I'M NOT HAPPY NOW.
BECAUSE THE CDN PRAC PAPER WAS SO DIFFICULT...!
I'M SO GOING TO FLUNG IT.
SAD. ):

GOING OFF TO PREPARE FOR WORK.
BYE EVERYONE.. ~

2009-07-16T19:28:00.005+08:00

Something happened during work yesterday...

Which is surprising... =.= It's the first time isn't it?

Ya...i guess so...Only XingXia and Amy knows...haha...

Okok...maybe Hua Ming knows too.. xP

Anyway, was standing at the same section with XX and Amy...

They work very fast de! so it's ok with only 3 ppl at the D section.. (:

Although it was damn busy... ><

NO CHAOS IN IT! Haha...so who says girls are always the weaker one? xP

OUR ETP PRESENTATION IS OVER TOO!

Which is great news! haha...

And there's a CDN practical paper tmr..

Wish me luck! ><

I'm actually hoping for FYI to arrive soon... ><

Anyway, i saw these very cute pictures... So sweet luh.. (:

LOL. xD

I'm happy without work today. (:

I'M NOT A GOOD CASSIOPEIA.

I'VE LET DBSK DOWN.

I FEEL SO UNFAMILIAR WITH THEIR THINGS NOW. ):

I'M SORRY!

2009-07-15T13:29:00.012+08:00

Yesterday a guy requested our chef to put a ring inside a sushi for his gf!!

SO SWEET CAN!! HE'S PROPOSING! IN SUSHI TEI! Lol..

Are you thinking why in SS.T? Haha...i dunno too..maybe his gf likes sushi...Thats why.. xP

Ahhh...thats a new idea...haha...

But i think the atmosphere is abit not right... xP

Was busy with ETP project for the past few days..

Finally passed up the damn long report...A huge load off my mind.. (:

I hope we can get better marks this time!

The previous project was so bad...seriously CMI de...

So, hope so lor...

AND HARRY POTTER WILL BE OUT TMR!

I wanna watch it!! Actually Katie and i wanted to watch on friday...

But, heard that it's almost fully booked!

Left with the few front seats...which i think will be sold out by friday.. ><

So sian...so when is the nx time we can watch? ):

I realized i always have alot random and un-related stuffs tgt in a post...

Because i rarely blog... xP
And here are some pics from the previous class chalet! (:

Class PIC! (:

Look at joker Swee koon at the back.. xP

The pathetic chicken wing. HAHA.

SweeKoon with Stanley

Our half-done castle! xD

With Fila.

JieYing With ME. (:

PICTIURES ARE ABIT MESSY BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO ADJUST. ><

Anyway, It's nice to have Xing xia working tgt on the same section with you..

She tasmania you know...LOL... (marcus gave her de name)

Does things very quickly! Shroom! and she's at the other end already... haha..

Hmmm...and she's a nice person to be with... Li Hui too.. ^^

So am i happy that they transfered over?

Ya..i think i am. (:

Last but not least,

The quote of the day.

"I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I'am with you." (:

Love is a miracle. (:

Jasmine's Pensieve

Oh, i love this song so.Whitney Houston: I Have Nothing - LyricsShare my life; take me for what I amCause I'll never change all my colors for youTake my love, I never ask for too muchJust all that you are and everything that you do

Oh, i love this song so.

Whitney Houston: I Have Nothing - Lyrics

I don't really need to look Very much furtherI don't want to have to go Where you don't followI won't hold it back again This passion insideCan't run from myself, there's nowhere to hide

Don't make close one more doorI don't want to hurt any moreStay in my arms if you dareOr Must I imagine you thereDon't walk away from meI have nothing, nothing, nothing,If I don't have you, You, you, you, you.

You see through, right to the heart of meYou break down my wallsWith the strength of your loveI never knew, love like I've known it with youWhen our memories survive one I can hold on to

I don't really need to look very much furtherI don't want to have to go where you don't followI won't hold it back again this passion insideI can't run from myself there's nowhere to hideYour love I remember forever

Oh don't make me close one more doorI don't want to hurt any moreStay in my arms if you dareOr must I imagine you thereDon't walk away from meI have nothing, nothing, nothing.

Don't make me close one more doorI don't want to hurt any moreStay in my arms if you dareOr must I imagine you thereDon't walk away from me